Former Cleveland Browns and Baylor wide receiver Josh Gordon said in an extended video Tuesday that he's been "enabled" most of his life, given multiple chances for his substance-related issues because of his ability.
"I've used alcohol on many, many occasions, Xanax on many occasions, cocaine several occasions, marijuana most of my life, codeine, cough syrup, methazine - very prevalent where I'm from". But now, in a short documentary for LeBron James' Uninterrupted digital video company, Gordon finally is admitting to his substance-abuse problems in his attempt to return to the field. "That was my first real experience with getting over on the system and that authority not really being taken serious because it was kind of being guided by somebody that's employed by the same university".
"I failed the drug test because I was getting high", he said.
"I've been enabled most of my life honestly", he said.
In May, Gordon's application for reinstatement was denied and he has yet to re-apply.
Gordon explained he failed a drug test at Baylor when he ran out of the masking agent and the coach didn't replenish his supply in time.
He recounts the many times he used - and abused - drugs, and talked about how his failed drug tests were covered up by coaches at Baylor, which may be the most shocking yet unsurprising revelation of this entire piece. Through his first two seasons in the league, Gordon was a high-magnitude quake, tearing down defenses on his way to become a first-team All-Pro and was the first receiver to accumulate 200 yards receiving in back-to-back games.
About a year later he was suspended indefinitely by then head coach Art Briles after he failed a drug test and tested positive for marijuana. "As such, we decline to comment further". "I thought I could keep on doing it and get away with it and get away with it". He last played for Cleveland in 2014 and has sat out the past two seasons. Gordon was suspended, while his teammate was kicked off the team.
"I need to live out my amends", Gordon said.
"So at that point, I was like, 'If you all want me to be this guy so bad, that's just what I'm going to be'".
He also praised National Football League commissioner Roger Goodell, saying Goodell has been a mentor "in a way he may not even understand".